Time Traveller. Part 1. The Lighthouse.

- You know, sometimes I just feel I don’t belong in here. And it’s more than just some times.

- Are you a time traveller?

He was smiling when he asked.

- Don’t you feel sometimes you’re out of time and out of place?

He smiled again, in his funny way, as if knowing more than what he was telling his friend.

- I do.

- Then you know how I feel… It’s just so…

This time he was thoughtful as if something more serious came to his mind.

- You have no idea how much I understand…

***

- We shouldn’t be here. If someone sees us…

- Shush! Nobody will. We are safe. It’s long past midnight.

- What if the police shows up?

- We will be quick. I just want to make sure it’s really here. 

- How would we know?

- I will know, believe me…

- OK.

- It should be around here somewhere, but it is so trivial, no one would ever notice it. Or if they do, they would never have an idea of what it really is. There it is. I knew it!

- It’s just a cache!

- That is what it could look like, but it’s more than that. It’s not a box. See?

- What are we going to do?

- Nothing. It’s safer if it is kept here, the way it is.

- Do you think there are more?

- Portals?

- Travellers?

He looked at the young man wearing glasses, in silence. His face was in darkness, but his breathing could be heard from a distance. And it had changed a bit.

- Let’s get out of here now. It will be morning soon.

- I hear footsteps.

- Quick! Do some stretching. Pretend we are exercising.

The sound of the steps became louder. Someone was running on the pathway to the jetty and getting closer to where they were.

The man wearing glasses turned around and stretched his leg on the lower rail, going slowly with his hands to his feet, as if stretching arms, back and legs. His mate was holding his foot with his hands, standing in one leg only.

They could not really see inside the dark hooded sweatshirt, if the newcomer was young or old, but by the way he moved, they could say the runner was a young strong man. He passed along the lane and ran around the lighthouse, coming back to the jetty and out of the pathway, into the street boardwalk and disappeared in the darkness again. The sound of his running steps faded in the distance.

The two men looked at each other in relief.

- That was close.

- It was not. Stop being so scared of everything. Let’s go back. We’ve had enough.

They left quickly to where the Jeep was parked, by the walkway and got into it, not before looking around.

They did not see the man wearing a dark hooded sweatshirt standing on the other side of the parking lot, hiding in the dark.

As soon as the car left, he crossed the parking area and went back to the jetty, running…

***

They got home in some minutes, as there was no traffic at that time in the morning. They still had some things to discuss.

- What the fuck was that? A portal?

- Yes. You know very well.

The man wearing glasses was feeling totally confused, as he knew those things were hard to understand and to believe in.

His friend seemed to be more comfortable with the existence of a portal, although since they had left the lighthouse earlier on, he seemed to be very absent-minded, as if he was in another world or era.

- Do you think we should…?

- I guess so.

- When?

- The sooner the best. Pack some things. We might not be back today.

***

When the sun was still rising, they were already on the road to the north. The A28 motorway was quiet, but soon it would be busy, either because of the traffic to the industrial areas or the people going to the beaches.

- A portal? It’s not possible! We had the last one completely destroyed!

- I know. But everything points to a new one and we had it located.

- How can that be possible? Unless… wait… no, no, no… That is unlikely…

- What? Wait a minute. Are you implying that they’ve come back here?

- What are you two talking about? You make no sense at all.

- But why here and why now? What’s in here now that could possibly be of some interest for them?

- I have no idea. If we had any indication of what happened when…

They looked at the man wearing glasses.

- Oblivion…

- Ok. Stop right here and now. I want to know everything about the Oblivion incident… It’s more than time. Don’t try to fool me any further, please!

The two men looked at the one wearing glasses. He was pale.

- OK. Sit down now. I’ll bring you some water. Relax a bit, will you?

- I don’t want to relax. This all seem to be related. Tell me what happened… Now!

- OK, but sit down, please. Drink the water. I’ll explain… or I will try to, anyway…

***

Watercolor Study (Portrait) - Estudo em Aguarela (Retrato)

O Menino no Sótão

Embora ainda fosse dia, havia apenas uma fraca luz vindo de um ponto no sótão, como percebi, de pé, junto à base da escada. Eu nunca havia tido autorização para subir aqueles degraus e ir lá em cima… nem acompanhado, muito menos por conta própria...

Agora, já não precisava mais da permissão de ninguém. Eu tinha que encarar aquela situação e queria fazê-lo… o quanto antes…

A escada, de dois lances, era de madeira escura e sem qualquer polimento. Os velhos degraus, tão pouco utilizados nos últimos tempos, rangeram, como se a reclamar, quando pisei neles. Murmurei, para mim mesmo:

- Não olhe para trás...

O sótão não estava tão desorganizado quanto eu pensei que estaria. Estava empoeirado, mas não sujo. Eu mal notei que havia uma pequena janela quadrada, voltada para o sul. A luz do final da tarde filtrava-se através do vidro empoeirado. Algumas caixas e um velho triciclo de metal, quebrado, com um assento de madeira gasto e manchado, estavam no meio do caminho. Vi uma cadeira de balanço junto à parede oposta à janela. Alguns móveis velhos estavam empilhados num canto mal iluminado. Em cima deles havia uma caixa de madeira marrom-escura com enfeites de pinos de metal, de cabeças arredondadas, dispostos ao longo da periferia da tampa.

Quando eu olhei, ele estava sentado no chão, no outro extremo, brincando com alguns minúsculos carros de brinquedo, quase no escuro. A maioria daqueles carrinhos já não tinha mais rodas. Ele estava com os pés descalços, vestindo um velho pijama de algodão estampado. Não olhou diretamente para mim, no início, como se não tivesse notado minha presença. Seu cabelo encaracolado era castanho claro, quase loiro, cortado bem curto. A boca, bem proporcionada, de um tom carmesim, mostrava dois pequenos pontos vermelhos, mais escuros, claramente evidentes, no centro do lábio inferior. Aqueles olhos castanho-esverdeados, muito curiosos e um tanto tristes, me notaram, finalmente.

Ele sorriu, timidamente, quando cheguei mais perto.

- Estás bem?

Ele balançou a cabeça, afirmativamente.

- Posso sentar aí, ao teu lado?

- Pode, mas vais sujar as roupas.

- Não tem importância.

- OK, então. É uma pena. Meus carrinhos estão todos quebrados.

Sentei-me ao lado dele e examinei um daqueles brinquedos que estavam no chão. Senti vontade de chorar e ele percebeu, mas me recuperei rápido o suficiente.

- Quantos anos tu tens?

- Cinco.

- O que estás fazendo aqui em cima, sozinho?

- Gosto de brincar sozinho e, além disso, estava esperando por ti. Podes brincar um pouquinho comigo?

- Sim. Pelo tempo que quiseres.

Ele abriu um sorriso largo e satisfeito, mostrando seus pequenos dentes, bem feitinhos. Pareceu-me ser um miúdo ‘duro na queda’.

- Tu gostas da cadeira de balanço?

- Sim, mas toma cuidado. Está quebrada. Vai desmontar-se toda.

Eu verifiquei e notei que as peças não estavam bem encaixadas, nos lugares certos. Devia ter sido abandonada e esquecida ali em cima. Tentei o meu melhor para reparar e, finalmente, sentei-me nela. O encosto e o assento, de palha trançada, fizeram um ruído característico, provavelmente devido à falta de uso. Ainda era uma cadeira bem forte, pelo que percebi.

- Queres sentar aqui comigo?

Ele veio mais para perto e eu o levantei do chão e sentei-o na minha perna esquerda. Ele sorriu e deitou a cabeça no meu peito, ainda entretido com um de seus carrinhos de brinquedo.

O som monótono e suave da velha cadeira, a balançar, e meus braços em torno de seu minúsculo corpo, eram como um convite para adormecer. Ele fechou os olhos. Eu podia sentir que ele relaxava e deixou o brinquedo cair da sua mãozinha, no meu colo. Parecia estar confortável e sentindo-se protegido e amado. Eu o abracei mais firmemente e beijei suavemente o topo de sua cabeça.

Meus olhos encheram-se de lágrimas. Meu coração estava transbordando.

Levantei-me em silêncio e desci, cuidadosamente, com ele nos braços e deitei-o em uma cama de solteiro, de colchão duro de palha, que havia no quarto abaixo da escada. Sentei-me na beirada de madeira escura, tentando não perturbar seu sono tranquilo. Seu rosto estava muito sereno. Acariciei seu cabelo fino e macio. Ele respirou fundo, descontraído, quase sorrindo, como se estivesse tendo um sonho bom.

Levantei-me e saí do quarto, deixando o menino em sua cama. Votei-me e olhei para ele, da porta.

Ele, agora, sorria. Seu sorriso era espontâneo e tranquilo, naquele rostinho inocente, em seu sonho feliz... Ele era, na verdade, um menino bem bonito. Deduzi que seria um belo homem, no futuro.

Respirei fundo e abri os olhos. Aquela minha jornada, ao passado, acabava ali. Senti uma satisfação enorme por haver conseguido fazê-la, daquele jeito.

***

The Boy in the Attic

Although it was still day, there was only a faint light coming from a point in the attic and seen from the base of the staircase. I had not been allowed to climb those steps up there ever before.

I did not need permission anymore, from anyone, anyway. I had to face it and I wanted to do it.

The two flight of stairs were dark and unpolished. The old unused wooden treads and risers creaked when I stepped on them. I mumbled.

- Don’t look back...

The attic was not as messy as I thought it would be. It was dusty, but not dirty. I hardly noticed there was a small square window, facing the south. Light was being filtered through its dusty glass. Some boxes and an old broken metal tricycle with a stained wooden seat were on the way. I saw a rocking chair by the wall opposite to the window. Old furniture were piled up at the poorly lightened corner end. On top of them there was a dark brown wooden box with metal pin decorations all around its lid.

He was sitting there on the floor, at the far end, playing with some tiny toy cars, almost in the dark. Most of those small cars had no wheels anymore. He was barefoot, wearing old homemade stamped cotton pyjamas. He did not look directly at me at first, as if he did not notice me at all. His curly hair was light brown, almost blond, cut very short. The lips were cherry red and the two little dark red spots on the lower lip were clearly evident. Those very curious sad-looking hazel eyes noticed me finally.

He smiled shyly when I walked closer.

- Are you ok?

He nodded affirmatively.

- Can I sit there by your side?

- You’re gonna dirt your clothes.

- I don’t care.

- Ok, then. It’s a shame. My cars are all broken.

I sat by his side and took one of those toys in my hand. I felt like crying and he noticed it, but I recovered quickly enough.

- How old are you?

- Five.

- What are you doing here on your own?

- I like playing alone and besides I was waiting for you. Will you play with me? For a while? 

- Yes. For as long as you want me to.

He opened a broad satisfied grin, showing his small well-built teeth. He looked like a tough little one.

- Do you like the rocking chair?

- Yes, but… you must be careful. It is broken. It might fall apart.

I checked it and noticed the parts were not well fixed in their right places, so I tried my best to repair and finally sat in it. The woven straw chair cringed a bit. It was still a good strong chair.

- Would you like to come here with me?

He walked up to me and I picked him up and let him sit on my left leg. He smiled and lay his head on my chest, still playing with one of his toy cars.

The slow, soft rocking sound of the old chair and my arms around his tiny body were like an invitation to fall asleep. He closed his eyes. I could feel he relaxed and his toy fell down from his hand to my lap. He seemed to be feeling comfortable and loved. I hugged him tighter and softly kissed the top of his head.

My eyes were wet. My heart was overflowing.

I quietly got up and went downstairs with him in my arms and carefully placed him in a single bed with a hard mattress there was in the room below the stairs. I sat on the dark wooden edge, trying not to disturb his peaceful sleep. His face was very serene. I stroked his soft thin hair. He took a deeper relaxed breath, almost smiling, as if contented with a dream he was having.

I got up and walked off the room, leaving the boy in his bed. I looked back at him from the door.

He was still smiling and his grin was spontaneous in his sweet happy dream… He was quite a good-looking little one. He would be a handsome man in the future.

I took a deep breath and opened my eyes. My journey to the past was over… I was happy I made it.

***

Home again... Finally...

Home... finally...

Girl (Watercolour Study)

As suggested by a friend: this is like the rebirth of Galatea: the moment she is given life.

Beacons (Faróis)

Your eyes

Are like beacons

Standing tall

By the shore,

Signalling brightly

The direction I should follow

And come to,

Finally,

Haven my tired soul.

***

(Teus olhos

São como os fachos

Dos imponentes faróis

Sinalizando, brilhantes,

Na costa,

A direção que devo seguir

Para,

Finalmente,

Aportar minha alma cansada.)